Truth is, I still am.
But what separates me from the old me is that, I believe even when I make mistakes or wrong decisions, God is merciful & will forgive, cleanse and direct me when I repent.
When I feel doubtful & fearful, His wings of shelter, care & love comes covers me. When I seek His face, His peace come over me.
I am sick of people judging & condemning me when I make the decision I knew was God-led. Example: to stay single now because I want to focus only on God & knowing previously I did not, So I chose to be single and fix my eyes on Jesus.
I chose my decision, I have made my choice.
That was just an example. I am facing condemnations for even more things.
Some of which is totally lame.
Example: posting on IG about God.
It does not mean I post about God = I am holy. It simply means I love Him & wants ppl to know how GREAT He is.
IT MAY SEEM to be in your point of view i should not do this and that , u can voice out but do not judge & condemn my decisions. It is hurtful.
I know I cannot control people what they think of me, say of me, do to me.
I just want to journal my thoughts. That's it.
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Felt so accused. But now what I am going to do, is to love. Love is a choice, i am choosing to love. I will love even more those who judge me, condemn me. Because love covers a multitude of sins. If I have not loved, I am nothing. The greatest of all is love after all.
Surely, There will be people saying "oh, just words." Its okay. I am NOT a man pleaser. Ultimately, who is gg to watch me is God.. For He knows my heart.
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End of ranting.
I feel much better now.
Feels great to rant a whole load of emotions I hve kept for a long time.
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