Misunderstood but its okay.

Writing this as I am going through inferiority and misunderstood from many ways. 

Your hands, it filled with hope

My heart was shattered,now its complete

Your love it melted my sins 

Your Grace that shines through my soul 

Your mercy that changed me, 

Your Kindness that guided me,

That compelled me,

That it motivated me,

To act like You did. 

Lord. My life now are filled w many judgements from many sides. I dare to declare and not ashamed to say, it is because of You, I can be kind to others. It is because of You, I can love people with a heart that the world will not be able to comprehend. 

Yes, I am saying that I have deep compassion & love for people. I have a pure heart that is genuine. This is the 1st time I am declaring it loud and openly. I will not be worried that others will think I am self-exalting. This, to me, I am accepting Your grace and gifts for me. Indeed it is impossible that I may have strength to love people this deeply, it is ONLY...only because Jesus had loved me, so I can love as deep.. 

I was telling a friend how hurt I felt when people take my genuine as falseness. He went on to encourage me with this: 

It happens because when we choose to follow Christ, the world rejects us, and this means sometimes even Christians.Cuz it's different, even as a Christian, the way of the world still applies, it is human nature to reject things you don't understand or are not normal. 

Hmm, well, genuineness doesn't come easily or as purely as you.

Thats why sometimes it hard for people to believe in you. 

Out of this, I can only have one conclusion. Thankful to God that He had made me so special in His way He wanted it. 

In fact, many people thinks that I am a bimbo. I am uncomfortable with that label, but I will not waver! I think this is amazing, because I know it very clearly in my heart that I really am not.

Times when I don't react to people's comments the way everyone else would, are these 2 scenarios: 

#1 I really don't understand. 

#2 I know how u feel when u were talking about this, but my view point is just different from urs so I cannot empathize. 

And I will choose to keep silent bcos if not it will evoke a quarrel. 

Most of the time people think that I am

an empty minded girl but I beg to differ. When #2 happens, when people are saying something and I am the only one not getting it right, there is a gentle tug that says its all good, bcos I'm pure thats why I cannot empathize. 

God has a lot of grace in my life. I am very blur, yet I was able to do excellently in serving, ONLY thru Christ who strengthened me, taught me, loved me so I can love.