As long as I know You are pleased w me.

Father, something happened earlier. I am disgusted by how ugly & cold blooded a human can be. Yet again, even tho we are imperfect, You chose to love us with perfect love..I'm so thankful. 

Anyway back to what I wanted to say. 

So earlier on, While making my way back home, I walked past an old lady selling tissue. So, I bought from her, and asked if she had eaten. She replied me no, and was happy that I asked bcos she was blind and couldn't see, it was inconvenient for her to get dinner on her own. 

So we went ahead, I had a great chat w her & I really appreciate the time spent w her. She was a funny old lady. But eyes were on us and I guess they were thinking to themselves, what a weird sight it is. They really gave us that look. 

It was a look that says scoffingly it is a rare sight for a young lady to do these and why should she even be bothered at all. Ppl looked at me disapprovingly as though I shd not help at all. As though I am weird. 

It was okay with me. I mean, I really don't mind people staring at me. Mock at me lor. At least I hope it will get them to start thinking of having the heart to serve the elderlies of the society. (i am being really positive here) Moreover, it really was God who had showed me such love and compassion freely, thats is how freely I could give. If not, where do you think I get the heart to show compassion from? 

We move on to chat over a plate of muah chee blessed by a stall owner (whom has always been blessing the old lady). But something else happened and I don't really want to share it here, but what I felt after that incident was, this society is really greedy and always seeking for self-fufilment. Even though they alrdy have enough and are in fact more blessed that others, they would still greed after the poor. 

After her dinner, I walked her to take a bus with her. I guess she was rly grateful to me, that when we hopped onto the bus, she insisted I should take her one-seater seat, and because of this, there was a jam in the front of the bus & people couldn't move in. In order to stop people staring, I took the seat lo. And something happened again!!!

Lord. Why are people so self centered? And judgmental? It is unbearable!! Why cant people love one another, serve one another, help one another? Must there be so much hardening of the heart that they cannot be moved to serve?? Urgh! 

Anyway. As upset as I am over these people, I want to ask for more grace for me to love difficult people. You have always taught me to love people. But now, this is another level for me. Just take me higher, it will not be comfy for me but its ok. I want to love people as the deepest I can love. 

I am also thankful for the opportunity You have allowed for me to show my love.