Missed opportunity

Feel so down. I blame myself for all the missed opportunity. 

I could have been there. I could have got it.... If not for my gastric flu because I did not take care of my body, I could have been there. 

So many emotions in me right now. Alright. I'll cry about it for awhile but I will stand up again. 

So confused, so upset. My heart's desire to be there, to serve in that area, but I missed the audition. 

I could have perservere and went ahead. I could have been more faithful toward God's healing and trust that He will protect me. But I cowarded at home fearing I might faint during lesson. If only I had more faith..

I know the last thing I should do is to blame myself and what has passed. Okay.. Just forget about it.. 

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Just woke up from a nap. Feeling recharged & empowered. I'm heading to prayer meeting for Children's Church Easter! 

I will trust You for greater plans You have in store for me. You are my joy, my cup, my fulfillment.. I will always wants to remember this: that I need nothin more than You alone. You are enough, Jesus. You are.