Joy of the Lord is always my strength

Went for Prayer meeting last night, did not regret. I mean, I enjoy God's presence, but sometimes the spirit is willing the flesh is weak. [ :( ] 

Boy, what a wonderful & strong presence of God! 

For a long time, I had not experienced such filling of the hs, my breakthrough came when Pst MJ laid hands on us. 

I don't care. I don't care what the world says, what they think. I love U Jesus & I am going to be firm about it. 

As I was strumming my guitar away and singing away ( not in tune) of my own made up song for Jesus, I just can feel such strong love God has for me.   

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I am so stuck right now. In the area of my trust & speech. I used to be able to speak well but now I stutter. :( I used to be able to go along well with people but I am having issues now. 

 Yet I know, I am secured in a love that is holding me from the beginning to the end. These are but for a moment & break through is on its way. 

God I trust You. In my relationships with people, in my thoughts for A, in my career, studies and calling. I trust You...may my life be led according to Ur will. 

Allow me to learn, as I come with a heart of willingness & total surrender.