Jon

We were Childhood friends, but we do not hold that much of memories.
Im not here to reminisce and I do not have feelings for him anymore, Im writting this as he causes a great impact in my life.

We met because of my ex, D.
We contacted again after D & I broke up.

He was a really nice guy, well I guess most of the guys are nice before they get the girl.
Though he was a tough guy, he changed a lot for me, he stopped doing many things becos of me.
Even when he was hanging out late with his buds, he would still call me to assure me.
Haha,whenever we were out, he'll make sure I eat even tho I told him I wasn't hungry.
In the movies.. he'd hug me tight when I'm cold.
He treats me really well. He will hug me really tight before I step into my house.
For me...he even lost his long-term f/s with D. Bcos he didn't like how D treated me.
I am not saying that it is good for people to brk their friendship because of the partner. I'm saying that for a tough guy doing that for the girl he loves, it's special, also because he knew that D didn't treat me well.

Till mid july.. everything starts to change.
28th june was when my mom forced us to break.
but the next day, i met him secretly.
I'd throw my tantrums @ him when I'm upset, and when he wanted to meet me I did not wanna. Yet, he still take it all in and continue to love me.

we last met on 29july.
we broke on the 31st Aug.
the day I folded 520 hearts in 5days for him. My efforts gone to waste as I did not get the chance to pass it to him.
On that very day, I went to church, I went to ask god, I cried. I cried not beos Im hurt by Jon. I cried because God's love was so real.

However it doesn't stop here. My mom called him the next day & we all had a nasty chat. mom wanted to give in initally but...y'know shit happens.

After that, we did not keep in touch.

I feel that.... sharing this is not easy because this incident hurt me deeply, I took almost 2years to forget him.He is a nice guy, I am just not the one for him.
I just feel that, we were all so young, so silly, so in love. There are so many things for us to look forward in life. Looking back, I thought I've lost everything. Haha, but no, it marks the beginning of my love for God. In christ, there is no 'end'. Every good-byes is a new beginning.
It really is a new beginning.
Because now Jwen has found A!! Somebody who can take good care of me, love me, do sweet stuffs for me, be there when I need him, and most importantly he loves God and me more than anything. He really adores me. He is a christian too! He is the best I can ever have. So, chin up people!
"The BEST has yet to come!"